"He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says..."
God bless you.
"As the deer pants for the water brooks, so pants my soul for You, O, God." Psalm 42:1
In tears, I used to say to the Lord that I had so much love to give, but I had no "man" in my life with whom to share it. I used to ask Him how I could possibly ever express and share the tidal waves of compassion, understanding, deep love, and passion within me if I had no husband.
His answer seems obvious to me now but, honestly, it wasn't then.
What do I do with all this love I have to give? I would ask Him. Then one day, when my heart and soul were quieted enough to hear Him, Jesus said to me, tenderly...
"Give it to Me. Give Me all the love that you hold, and I will know what to do with it, beloved. I will answer it, and return it, and grow your spirit through it like no one else can. I Am your First, True Husband... so GIVE ME ALL OF YOUR LOVE, My love. You were created to love Me."
Friends, that registered with me so heartily and so truly... every fiber of my being knew it was so. Right then, I knew Jesus the Christ was the only answer - for even this grave dilemma confronting me - though I never understood it before. I mean, I knew He could wipe away my sins and free me from their shame. . . I knew He died for my reconciliation with Abba, and I knew He was God's holy and righteous Son. BUT . . . never for a moment did I think He could really, truly be my Divine Husband! Not in ways so specific and crucial to my emotional well-being; not in answer to my heart's cry for DEEP LOVE and affection, lavishing those things upon Him again and again in fathomless adulation and unending embrace. But, you know what??
Coming in to Jesus in time alone with Him I can behold His Righteousness and Wisdom and Favor . . . and I can ADORE Him with all of my might. I can lay on my face and cry and cry - all good - and love and lavish upon Him all the passion that ever fills my heart (which Holy Spirit amply supplies) in multiple expressions of love and abandoned desire for total transformation into His image, no matter what it costs me.
That's the closest I can come to adequately conveying the kind of intensity that embraces us when we meet, heart- to heart and spirit to spirit, in the Holy Place. Then all of my love I lavish upon on Jesus, with abandon, with relish, and with an all-consuming desire and saturating oneness I have never felt with any other person in existence. He gladly receives all that I can give, and welcomes the promise of "more".
The best part is . . . that's how it was meant to be !
Dearly beloved, I am here to bear witness before God, angels, and everyone reading that it is absolutely, positively, 100% normal, sought-after, and acceptable by God to give Christ Jesus ALL OF THE LOVE IN YOUR HEART in EVERY AREA. Thank God for that!
He is the nourishment for every hungry heart, and there's no one more deserving or appreciative of our love. Remember, we were created to love Him.